"What the hell mom?!"

What the hell indeed! Issac has officially mastered...swearing. I'll own it, it's very much my fault. I grew up in Wyoming (strike 1) with my dad (strike 2). It's not swearing, it's 'conversation'. Well, at least until I heard it out of my 6 yr old, used in context. Sigh... we had to have the 'no swearing' talk. His rebuttal? 'You swear mom.' Yes I do. Damn. The kid is too smart for his own good. So instead of being the good mom who would say, yes son, I should stop swearing, I told him I was an adult and could swear and he could swear when he grew up but not until then. My reasons? I know very well that I cannot stop swearing. It's the weak way out, I know. We'll see if it works!

Perspective

I have attitude lately. A lot. I am picked on, life isn't fair to me, and no one has to put up with as much as I do. Yeah, right. I know. Someone always has it worse, but like I said, I have attitude right now.

First it was a troubled pregnancy. Why me? Everyone else gets pregnant and continues on their merry way. Then it was my job - instability and lack of control. Those two things make me CRAZY. Then it was money - stupid health insurance not covering what I believe they should and I'm left with very large medical bills. Like I said, I'm picked on.

I'm not sharing this with you for pity. I'm instead sharing for perspective because I have had a revelation. I am NOT picked on but instead quite blessed and loved by a caring Heavenly Father. Let me explain.

The pregnancy - I prayed for everything to 'be ok'. Guess what, it is! All previous problems resolved. Gone. The job issue, a new job out of the blue that seems too good to be true. I will still get to work at home and play part-time crazy mom to my kids. But I can be flexible and be there for them when they need me (although they might like less crazy). The money? Well, that's gotten worse but I think it's resolving. We OWE taxes. And a ton. But we have also been saving for the baby faithfully every paycheck. Turns out, as my little control-freak spreadsheet proves today that what we have been saving will cover us for the money we need for maternity leave, pay off Uncle Sam, and the hospital. Within $50. I kid you not. Amazing how it works out.

I hope for all 3 of you that read this blog from time to time that you can find perspective in your trials. I know it has been humbling for me to finally realize that time after time, my Heavenly Father is providing answers and blessings and trying to let me see that just because I don't have it all under control, HE does.